18 Months Old

17 Months Old - Eating her fav, french toast! Who am I kidding? If it's food, it's Bean's favorite! 

Elizabeth was 18 months old  yesterday, friends! A YEAR AND HALF! Do you know what this means? In 6 months, I'll have a 2 year old. TWO. 

I don't even know where to begin to tell you how freaking scary that is. 

Not much has been going on in the Steele household. Frank is currently in California playing video games so Bean and I are alone until Monday or Tuesday? I can't remember. I just know I'm alone NOW. It's really hard. I'm not used to being alone so much at night. As someone who worries about EVERYTHING, constantly, it's not fun. I'll be happy when he's home.

I've been trying to occupy myself as much as possible - so I've created an Etsy!
For those of you who don't know what Etsy is - just go to that link above! It's an amazing site where people can sell handmade goods. My products haven't nearly reached the awesomeness of what other people are selling; but I plan to get to full awesomeness here soon!
My Gramma gave me literally thousands of beads a few weeks ago, thankfully! All I needed to buy were some tools, wiring and some other tiny beads needed. So cool! I'm so excited to get things up and " running!"

Wish me luck!


Since I don't have much to say this month - Here are some pictures. :3

And a video of Bean's new "terrible two's" personality.

She's telling me to get out of her chair - even though it's my chair. Hahaha. 

New Mama struggles & how I dealt with it!

Below are some things I've had to learn and deal with being a new Mom! I'm hoping by the time I have a 2nd child, I can read back through this and laugh! 

39 Weeks Prego with Elizabeth Ann!

PREGNANCY:
I found out I was pregnant in April of 2011. It was a bit of a shocker considering I had my wedding all planned out by then and set the date in August of 2011. That made me 5 months pregnant at my own wedding. Needless to say, I was pretty upset. I'm naturally a small person and now I was gaining weight ( which my mother-in-law was sure to tell me!) every week and getting bigger by the minute. Don't get me wrong! I've wanted to be a Mama for as long as I could remember, just not that soon! Of course, my entire family told me "Babies come when they want."  
Have a good support system!
So, being pregnant and getting married and trying to figure everything out was pretty emotional for me. My hormones were going nuts and I wanted to tell everyone to shut the #*&^ up! I knew I couldn't trust my own brain and immediately took my problems to other people, and I'm so glad I did. On top of having a wonderful  family and a maid of honor willing to go out of her way to meet me for morning coffee before work everyday; I had a fantastic doctor and nurse who were not only concerned for the health of my baby, but asked me over and over again how III was doing and "coping." It was nice to be able to talk to someone out of the "family circle". If you don't like your doctor/midwife/etc, go find one that you do! If it takes you a few to go through, it's worth it!

NURSING:
I almost feel kinda guilty for saying I've "struggled" with nursing. My Elizabeth Ann had no problems latching from minute 1 and ate from both boobs right away! I never had issues with milk supply and actually over produced a bit. I was a constant "leaker". I actually started leaking colostrum a few months before Elizabeth was born. The problem was everyone else. Starting from day 1. After having Elizabeth, the hospital we were at had a tub ( something I longed for SO bad during my pregnancy but do not have) so, I of course, decided to take a nice bath before going home. After I was done, I came out to my find my husband literally shoving a bottle down Elizabeth's throat and a nurse nagging him from behind saying the "choking" is normal and she will get used to it. Elizabeth was a 5lb baby, pretty small but full term and completely healthy! I'm a pretty quiet person when it comes to voicing my opinion so I just sat in bed and glared as my husband tried to feed our daughter who was clearly full from the 3-4 times I had already nursed her! The nurse took this as a " OMG! She isn't eating and is tiny! You may have to keep her here at the hospital for a while!" Once she mentioned staying at the hospital longer I perked up and tried to tell her " Hey, I nursed. She isn't hungry right now..." and she replied with " If you're having problems nursing, we have a lactation nurse on call if you'd like to call her." Make sure whatever hospital you're at, home, etc knows what your plan is for feeding before the baby is born, after the baby is born and repeatedly! Voice your opinion, it's your child! 

Milk coma at 1 month old! 

Being a somewhat modest person, I was having problems pulling out my boobs out 24/7 to feed Elizabeth.
For the first few months I'd leave the room if anyone was present and found a quiet place to feed her. My boss had then given me a beautiful nursing cover that was a complete lifesaver for me! Elizabeth hated it and we eventually stopped using it unless we were in public or around people we didn't know. On top of being modest, I had a constant nagging brother who would yell at me when I'd feed her, a few friends who were actually disgusted at the fact I was feeding my child, even with the cover, and stares from people I didn't know who looked at me as if I was doing something horrible to my child. This was especially bad in the later months as I breastfed Elizabeth until she was 13 months old and at night until she was 16 months.
I now know when I have my 2nd child, to expect stares of disgust but to shrug them off. These people are ignorant. I don't plan to be one of those Mama's who pops her boob out in the middle of the grocery line, but I do plan to breastfeed proudly and if someone has the balls to tell me otherwise ( again!) I will have no problem telling them off this time!

GOING BACK TO WORK:
Before Elizabeth was born, I had a great full-time job working 8-5, weekends off, being an office assistant. It was a great job for me and I truly enjoyed it. As promised, after Elizabeth was born, I had 3 months of maternity leave. I hadn't expected how hard it was going to be to go back. On top of being completely attached, emotionally and half the time physically, to Elizabeth, I was exclusively breastfeeding which means I'd have to get Elizabeth to start taking a bottle - which I had been unsuccessful previously. I joined the Mom365 site a few months earlier and this was a good time for me to start up a discussion and see what other Mom's were doing when going back to work. Many mother's were saying " If your baby is truly hungry, she will eat! Don't worry!" So, I decided to go back part-time and only have MY mother and mother-in-law watch her. I just couldn't do it. I worried the entire time and couldn't concentrate on my work. I kept getting calls and texts saying she refused to eat and that I needed to come home. After a few months of trying to work part-time, my boss ( A mother of 3 herself) and I both agreed it would be best if I quit and stayed home with Elizabeth. It was such a hard decision for my husband and I. We were so used to BOTH incomes and now we had to rely on his only. Completely worth it to be with my child! We're still adjusting to it but have managed to stay out of debt by cutting down on basically everything. We rarely go out to eat - if we do it's a special occasion. We also shop at our local QFC where we get a great discount for signing up for their card.
When Elizabeth turned 10 months old my friend offered a job with her, working 1 day a week in our home town. So I now I work 1 day a week whenever my mother has a day off. When Elizabeth was still nursing, this current job was so close to home, my Mom was able to stop by at lunch time so I could nurse Elizabeth! It's been great to have the few extra dollars we lived without for many months! I've also decided to create an Etsy account since I'm doing crafts all day anyways!

STAYING HOME:

A mama deer & 1 of her 2 babies that live in my back yard! 

I know it sounds crazy. "She struggles staying at home? It must be soooo hard *sarcasm*". It's a lot different than what I was used too! I used to be free! I now have devoted ALL my time to my child! I love it, but it's a lot different and did get some getting used too. My husband and I only have 1 working vehicle now, which means Elizabeth and I are literally stuck at home. I get quite lonely. As much as I love chatting with my toddler, she doesn't have the communication skills an adult has. Ha ha. I'm lucky enough to live about a block away from my parent's where my little brother and little sister still live so we can take walks up there to visit and hopefully I can get in some adult interaction. We also do a lot of crafts and go outside whenever the weather permits! If it gets us out of the house, we are usually up for it!

I think the most important thing I've learned from being a Mom for 18 months now, is that every child is different. Every parent is different. Some things work for you, and some things don't. I found that I was beating myself up over little things because one parent was doing something completely different than I was; but what they were doing, didn't work for Elizabeth. Just because you do it a different way, doesn't mean it's wrong! Trial and error is half of being a new Mom and it can only get better from here! :) 

Chalkboard Mason Jar

CHALKBOARD MASON JAR

In attempt to make my bathroom/laundry room look more presentable, I had decided a few months ago to throw my cotton balls ( that I use EVERY DAY) inside a jar, rather than just leave them in the bag.  It worked. The room did look more put together but I was still missing something.

On My Pinterest I had been browsing a lot of people using chalkboard paint for everything! I had bought chalkboard SPRAY paint for my birthday back in January and I've been dying to use it ever since. This was the perfect opportunity. 

The awesome thing about this project: you can use it for a number of things! Why? Because you can erase chalk!  This is perfect for the food canner whom reuses their mason jars every year *my mother*. I plan to make a few of these and use them for all my bathroom storage, Q-Tips, band-aids, that kind of thing! 

SUPPLIES NEEDED

- Mason Jar or glass jar
- Painters tape
- Chalkboard paint
- Chalk

STEP 1:

Grab your mason jar or whatever jar you plan on using, along with your painters tape!

Make sure it's clean. Once you spray paint it, it's gunna be hard to clean.

Begin to mask off any part of the jar you don't want paint.
Use several layers and make sure that there aren't any bubbles and that everything is straight and pretty!




If you are using paint rather than spray paint you don't have to use any much painters tape as I did above, but I've never used spray paint before was worried I'd get it everywhere!
As you can see, I decided to bring it outside. No icky paint fumes inside ma home!

STEP 2:

I was really worried I'd get spray paint everywhere so I asked my husband who claims to be a professional in that area to give it a shot for me.
He, of course being the good husband he is, agreed.

I'm glad we decided to put extra painters tape on because the paint did get everywhere! But Frank ( my husband) did a good job and there was no drips, etc. 

On the spray can are directions saying to put at least 2 coats of paint on for the chalkboard to take effect. So we put several coats on and let it dry overnight. 

STEP 3:

After everythings dried, take your tape off! For some reason, this was my favorite part.
If you made sure there were no bubbles in your tape, you should have a nice clean line around the jar.

STEP 4:

Grab your chalk and write whatever you want! I'm using mine for cotton balls, so, that's what I wrote...
I was so tempted to doodle on it. I'm sure by next week there will be a picture of a cat or something along those lines on it. 

What is a Mother?

Lately, I've been coming across a saying. I keep seeing it everywhere.

 The saying is " Every mother on earth has birthed a child. Except my mother, she gave birth to a legend." 

I know this saying is a joke, and don't get me wrong, I like jokes. I can take a joke... for the most part. I keep seeing this though and it's really bugging me! 

I know they're a ton of mother's out there who have adopted. Mother's who have fostered. They're women out there who CAN'T biologically  have babies and yet still go out and be a mother, regardless. Yes, a big part of being a mom is the birthing process, but the other half is how they do it. Being an present parent.

I just want people to understand, yes, it's a funny joke but before you post it to Twitter, Facebook or any other social media, think. Do you have any friends who can't conceive? Do you have any friends who have been adopted themselves? 

Laundry Room Art In 4 Steps!

My version before my last coat of paint and clear acrylic coating! 

Hey friends! So I got this idea from My Pinterest...SURPRISE! 

Here is the link to the actual pin. In case you want to see how it's "supposed" to look. 

SUPPLIES NEEDED
- 12 x 12 canvas
- Acrylic paint
- Paint brush
- Pencil
- Ruler ( Optional)
- Acrylic coating ( Optional) 

STEP 1:
Grab your canvas and paint the whole thing your desired color! In my case, I chose a light blue. I wanted a lighter color. My laundry room is also, currently, my bathroom ( sigh) so this will help match and bring everything together. Make sure there is at least 2 coats of paint on the canvas! It looks to me in the original pin, they used a wood board rather than canvas, which could be really fun to do! Get crafty and use anything  you want! 

STEP 2: 

After your background color has dried ( should only take 30 minutes - an hour, acrylic paints dry fast! Another reason I love them so much!) take your pencil and write out all the lettering. I had contemplated on using my letter stencils and making everything "perfect" -  but I really like the whole "handwritten" look. Feel free to use a ruler and make everything perfect if that's your style!

STEP 3:

Paint over your lettering with a correct size paint brush and, obviously, different color paint. I chose white, cause, again, it's a light color and stands out well! If you don't want the background color to show through your lettering, paint a couple coats. Let dry!

STEP 4: ( Optional) 
So, you can be done now or you can protect the painting with an acrylic coating, which I highly recommend! Especially if you have a similar case to mine and your washer and dryer share the same room as your bathroom! The room gets all moist ( even if you leave your fan on) and the coating will protect it from not only moisture but UV rays, etc! 

17 months old

16 months old: Caught red handed playing with Mama's plant!

Elizabeth was 17 months old on the 29th. Time has just been flying and my baby is now this running, loving, silly, whining, screaming toddler. I've been having to tell her "No" to basically everything. I feel so bad. I've been trying to find other ways of saying "No" as " That's not for Bean!" or " OUCH! THAT WILL GIVE YOU AN OWIE!" She's finally starting to get the point but I've had to get down at her level and let her know I'm being serious. Of course, I'm the only one ( or feel like it at least) that is saying "no" to her! Frank says she's too cute to discipline and the grandparents keep saying " Grandparent's are here to spoil! " Oye.

She's so smart and so fun to teach. She actually understands what people have to say to her - SO BIZARRE.

Anyways. Not much has really changed here at the Steele household. Still living on Camano in my crappy home. It's been raining ALL week so we've been stuck inside. I think it's maybe caused a bit of cabin fever in myself. I'm so lonely and depressed, it's really stupid and pathetic. Don't get me wrong, I love being home with my girl, but even a trip to the grocery store at this point would make me happy. I just want to get out of the house!

DIY MAGNET PARTY FAVORS

 I can't believe I didn't blog about these already! I made these for Elizabeth's 1st birthday party... a little over 5 months ago.  I think I actually wrote about them but wasn't doing "tutorials" yet. So here it is! They're candy filled baby jars with the lid made into a picture fridge magnet! 

I did get the idea from My Pinterest. Not going to take credit even though I'd love to! They were

really fun to make. I DID make some of my own little crafty changes to make them more personal, which I will explain below! 

SUPPLIES NEEDED

- Baby food jars
- Resin
- Cellophane "Basket" wrap
- Hemp, string, ( anything you can tie with)
- Hot glue
- Ribbon

- Cardstock
- "Thank-you" stamp ( Optional)
- Scissors
-Ruler ( Optional)
- Personalized photo ( Optional)
- Circle cut out (Optional) 

- Magnets or a magnet strip
- M&M's or a candy of your choosing ( The best part!)

STEP 1

I started off making the lids as I assumed it was going to take the longest. I've never used resin before and was terrified. I ended up letting my husband mix and pour it in...mistake #1. I should've just read the directions and did it myself. I had scanned the directions on the resin box and it had said it could take 1-3 days to dry but that's all I got before handing it off to my husband who I had ASSUMED read the directions for himself. It resulted in resin ALL over my cookie sheet and lids that never dried fully. They still looked fine but guests couldn't keep the lids as long as they wanted too. READ THE DIRECTIONS ON YOUR RESIN BOX!!! 

Anyways, the tutorial I was reading had put a "thank-you" inside their lids, I had decided instead to put Bean's face as it was HER 1st birthday party favors! All our guests were family and friends who love her to the moon and back so I knew it wasn't being creepy. :3

After the resin was poured, I made sure to put the cookie sheet up on top of the fridge where Bean and the furry kids couldn't reach. Keep it up high till they're dry!

STEP 2

Get your hot glue gun and ribbon out! Measure the circumference of the baby jar you're using and cut out ribbon to size. Glue on. You don't have to use glue on the entire thing of ribbon, just a dot at the ends will work! 

If you're thinking " Wow, her kid sure did eat a lot of baby food!" you're wrong! None of these were mine! Bean was a boob and snack girl till 12 months! My Grandma had called me asking if I could think of anything to do with them. Her poor cat, who is a million years old, had been instructed by the vet to eat nothing but baby food as it's pureed and good for his old tummy. I of course accepted and glad I did as they turned out to be awesome party favors! 

STEP 3

Say thank you! It's pretty obvious I didn't use a circle stamp cutter thing to cut out the cardstock for the thankyou piece.  YOU can totally do it if the un-perfect circle bothers you.

I already had a thank you stamp and ink from years ago so decided to use it and save time. If I had more time I would of wrote it myself.

I glued them onto where the ends of the ribbon met each other so you don't see any cut ribbon on the jar.

STEP 4 ( A few days later)

Now it's time to grab your lids after they've dried and glue on the magnets to the back! The baby jar lids are metal so the magnets already stuck well but I still used a bit of hot glue to adhere them with so they wouldn't fall off. 

STEP 5

Grab your candy of choice and fill the jars! I chose M&M's cause, who doesn't like M&M's?! They're also  colorful and fill the jar nicely. Jellybeans would work nicely too. I did think about color coordinating them so that each jar would have only 1 color M&M but I didn't have the patience or money for that.

STEP 6

Cut out cellophane wrap for your size baby jar. Place the lid with picture size UP and wrap the jar up. Tie together with your string or hemp or whatever you have! I chose hemp cause it ties nicely!

REPEAT till all jars are finished! 

So even though my resin never did fully harden ( some did, some didn't. ) I still got a ton of compliments on them and people we're happy with their candy! I also had fun making them. It's going to be hard to top for Elizabeth's 2nd birthday but I know I'll think of something!

If you're curious who did Elizabeth's amazing birthday cake it was Rochelle with Rochelle's Cakes! She made Frank & I's wedding cake and we were so happy with it we asked her to do Bean's as well!